OMG! I was just walking around outside and was standing in the underground-thingy under the road here and this green car drove by and I just stood there and then it stopped, turned around and I ran like hell and found a place to hide. Then I heard this person run down in the underground where I stood, and I just stood cramped and scared to hell and thought "OMG! what if this is it? what if I'll never see my mother and brother and my friends again? And Emeli and everyone sees me on the news and I'll be the girl who's gone? oh, pleas make them go away, pleas, pleas, pleas! Why did I have to go here? STUPID IDIOT, oh pleas leave!" Then I heard the car drove up the other road that lead to where I would've ended up if ran further up through the trees. So I didn't think, I just started running as fast as I could with no stop when I got in the door here, I locked the door and thought I was gonna puke, do you know how far it is to run? I can't believe I did that. Me and mum saw the car driving up the road to the school here and stuff. I'm still so shakey and scared. I can't believe I almost got kidnapped. The day started so amazingly great and now it's just ruined. Fucking kidnapping assholes. I'm so glad I made it home.

Emilie Autumn is a genius woman. She's so fucking talented it shouldn't even be legal. She sing, play violin, write these amazing songs that's all from celtic to classic to industrial and metal, it's amazing. I've never had a "wow" experience like this in my whole life. She's definitely my new inspiration and, you know, flesh blood is always good, haha. No I'm just kidding. But I've never truly wished to be someone else, maybe just look like someone else, but actually I wish I was her and that says alot.



Anyway, I was supposed to meet Raggen today, but as always something shitty happens, this time? not any money. And I'm really sorry and feel really bad about it, because it sucks. I hate to break appointments and to maybe break a little of the trust between me and my friends, because it sucks, I don't wanna be that person. But it always comes things in the way that make it seem like I'm a really bad friend. Don't you just hate it when your life is turning all "television" on you? x)
It's fun to watch it on tv, that's not real, but it sucks so bad when it actually happens to you.

From this shitty thing and really pointless to bare around with me really to something really funny.

Today this guy I used to talk to on msn from London had sent me this reeeeally long message on myspace in my inbox. In respect for him I won't post the whole thing here, but I have to tell someone about it.
At first it started with this beautiful poetic writing and it was a little strange so I just thought it was some kinda joke. Then he said that he have never met someone so beautiful, pure, poetic, mystic, wicked and passionate girl as me before. I just sat there and was like "WHAAAT? have you written to the wrong person?". I still don't know what kinda sick joke this is, but it made me laugh.

what's new? my arm is killing me =O

Anyway, a beautiful day, so I'm gonna run out for a little while before all the cars start driving around here and go barefoot in the green grass and feel the cold grass between my toes.
OMG! how deep ain't I? x)
blablabla..bye!

GREETINGS!



I'm one of those who's very into poetry, old art, mysteries, history, old castles and buildings and old classical music. Shakespeare and Vlad Tepes for me is the most intense and romanthic men in history in my eyes. I guess that's kinda why I like Ville so much, because I see so much in the person he is behind the camera that reminds me of that beautiful soul Dracula really had behind that mask. He might look like a alcoholic rocker in front of the camera, but behind those eyes he wanna die of sorrow. It's different ways to look at Ville and different ways to feel about him. We have all the 14 year olds or 14 years old mentally who's like this:"like sooo OMG! I like this guy. And prada bags and pink is like soo lame and I'm like sooo goth and listens to HIM and wear black and walks around in graveyards and taking pictures because I'm like sooo gothic" (that irretates me).
Then we have the "He's like a dead corpse, lets eat him"...+++
I guess I just wish he was the way I look at him, but I don't know who he is behind the camera, I've never seen him. But sometimes it feels like I know him in a way, but I know I don't. At least I'm not one of those girls out there who's sure they're gonna get him some day, because I know I won't, but it's nice to dream about it. To look up at the sky and pretend he's looking up at it too wherever he is and thinking that "somewhere out there, it's a girl who's ment for me that I haven't met yet who's looking up at the sky right now with me and thinking and dreaming and loving me and wish I was with her, I hope she knows I'm with her, that when we're both looking up at the sky, we're one".
I sometimes close my eyes and see me and Ville together in an old castle in old-looking clothes like they wear in the Bram Stokers Dracula-movie and that he's softly touching my hand and, I don't know, it just seems so real some times that I can almost feel his hand on my shoulder, because I want it to be real so bad. I've read all of his lyrics, but haven't we all? but it's beautiful, it's a poets words. He's a smart man. He have the eyes of Edgar Allen Poe on his back. He's a normal man.
And don't be a smarty pants and think I love his band just because I love Ville, because it is first and foremost their music I love, if I had that terribble choise between HIMs music or Ville, I would've chosen HIMs music, because that have ment the world to me. I will never be tired of HIMs incredible music. Too bad that so many people are trying so hard to chose between being a fan of the whole band HIM and their music or falling for Ville, because they think that people will look at them with hatred because they think that you just love the band because you like Ville. Oh, come on, that's bullshit. Okey, so yeh, it irretates me too when all these people are saying "oh, Ville is so HOTTT" on videos on youtube, because NO, that's not JUST about Ville and you have a reason to be irretated over stuff like that because so do I. I mean, if you're gonna comment on their music and the incredible talent the band has, you shouldn't say "Ville is HOT", what's that? I hate when people does that. Just keep that to yourself, because no, you're not a true fan when you're just talking about Ville, when it's 4 other people in the band. And if you haven't noticed, here's some information to you about them:



Mikko Viljami Lindström
Instrument: Guitar
Birthday: 12.08.1976
Sign: Leo
Brothers/Sisters: Little brother
Favourite film: From Dusk Till Dawn
Favourite colour: Green
Favourite city: Luxor
Favourite dish: Ital food
Favourite drink: Beer
Special interests: Meditation, Celibacy
What he doesn't like: Strangers
Idols: John Lee Hooker, Steve Vai
Best song ever: HIM: Borellus



Miko Henrik Julius Paananen
Instrument: Bass
Birthday: 19.12.1974
Sign: Saggitarius
Brothers/Sisters: Big brother Helmut
Favourite film: Sleepy Hollow
Favourite colour: The colour of Saruman's robe
Lucky number: 666
Favourite city: Barcelona
Favourite dish: Soul food
Favourite drink: Coffee, water, nectars
Special interests: Catholic churches, architecture, Charles Chaplin, exotic instruments, meditation, Vedrana, pyramids, photography
What he doesn't like: Cruelty, hatred, aggression, ghosts & other night fears, wicked spirits, envy, modern shopping malls
Idols: Black Sabbath, Ville Valo, Lily Lazer, Suho Superstar
Best song ever: Black Sabbath: War Pigs
Message: Be careful with alcohol, sex, drugs & other temptations



Janne Johannes Purttinen
Instrument: Keyboards
Birthday: 17.10.1974
Sign: Libra
Brothers/Sisters: -
Pets: -
Favourite film: Charles Chaplin's City Lights
Lucky number: 7
Favourite city: Helsinki
Favourite dish: Pizza
Favourite drink: Coffee
Special interests: Everything
What he doesn't like: McDonalds
Best song ever: Horst Mamerow: Klarinetten Polka
Message: Murskaa Mäkki



Mika Kristian Karppinen
Instrument: Drums
Birthday: o8.o2.1971
Sign: Aquarius
Brothers/Sisters: -
Favourite film: Scarface
Favourite colour: Jade Green
Lucky number: 11
Favourite city: New York
Favourite dish: Sushi & Japanese
Favourite drink: Beer, GT
Special interests: Movies, The Pens, Motorbikes and Cigars
What he doesn't like: Bad food, bad people and early wake-up calls
Idols: Darius Kasparaitis, Krzysztof Oliwa, Herra no.66, Daniel Lioneye and Dave Lombardo
Best song ever: Discharge, Slayer (All)

I love you all, your band and your music means the universe to me. If your music dies, I'll die.

As we all know, Ville also has a tiny little solo thing going on on the side from HIM where he's singing together with different people, including Apocalyptica and Lauri Ylönen, The Agents, Natalia Avelon, Manna (Mikko Viljami's wife) and maybe some other people too that I don't remember right now at the moment, I'm not sure.
But I think you should hear this song with Manna because it's absolutely beautiful:



I'm just in a little weird mood now, I don't usually write stuff like this, because you gotta understand that sure, I like Ville, don't we all in our weird, but different ways? But, I love HIM the band and their music most of all. And I think that Ville writes songs and sings them so well that they have kinda built itself up to such a huge thing that it's bigger than Ville himself now, because the music the band creates is so much bigger than any feelings I could ever have for Ville. To make a long story short, I like Ville Valo, he's a genius, tall, dark and handsome (hæhæ xD) and mysterious and poetic, BUT I LOVE his music, see what I'm saying here? Confused? I don't care *puts on their "Uneasy Listening Vol. 2" album and listens to Sigillium Diaboli*

I love this song =D
You can also search for the song under the name "Stigmata Diaboli". It's one of my favourite songs from HIM and since we're talking about that song, here you have that one too in live version:



That song is absolutely orgasmic =p xD

Oh man, I should calm the whole HIM-thing down, but I can't stop, HIM is my heart, my soul, my ears, my eyes, my face..yeh you got it, HIM owns me, I'm addicted. HIM is like a healthy drug to me that runs through my ears on HIGH VOLUME SO I CAN'T HEAR WHAT YOU'RE SAYING xD
Everytime I bake cookies or bread or pizza or anything else for that matter, I have this habbit that I always make a heartagram out of it, jepp...heartagram bread I made a week ago or something, home made heartagram pizza I made around christmas last year (2006). and at High School when we baked cookies once I formed them as heartagram, we should seriously have that, Maryland Cookies shaped as heartagrams, it would've rocked instead for boring round ones =p
And my mum have even said that I can plant some flowers in the garden shaped in the form of a heartagram in front of our house, how cool is that? I'm gonna plant black and red roses in a heartagram form in our garden. That will be so freaking awsome, it's gonna rock everyones ass off =p

Anyway...
This has been a very strange and long thing that took many hours to write, so I hope it's not TOO confusing for you. And must the HIM power live on, may Venus be with you and the heartagram live inside you and pump out blood through your body forever.
See you soon sweethearts, live well.
THE END!

Georg was standing there in the heat without any t-shirt on, hanging up some posters. Tom was laying on the bed behind him searching the internet as a cover-up for laying there and carefully looking at Georg. He couldn't help himself, it wasn't these normal sexually feelings he have had for so many girls before, it was something new and intense and he felt his heart beat fast and he started sweating every time he came close to Georg. This deep feeling and he didn't know how much longer he could keep this to himself. Georg came over to him and asked "What are you searching for there Tom?" and sat down next to him on the bed. Tom felt his whole body shaking and the blood was running faster through his head than ever. He was so nervous that he actually could feel his blood getting warmer and how it rushed through his head like never before. He thought to himself that it was now or never he had the chanse to get closer to Georg. He slowly and carefully took his hand on Georgs shoulder and said "I need to tell you something that I've kept to myself for too long now and I can't do it anymore because it's killing me inside". He looked with a broken and sad face down in the madrass, he was too scared he was gonna lose control if he met Georgs beautiful eyes. Georg was starting to get worried about him and took his arm around Tom and asked what was wrong. Tom felt his heart beating so fast inside his body, he tried to breath, but he had a hard time doing that. A tear fell from his eye and all the muscles in his body started to hurt, he couldn't breath and then he fell backwards in the bed and fainthed. Georg paniced and started to scream things out loud without even knowing it himself "Tom, pleas wake up, I love you, I didn't wanna tell you, just pleas wake up". Tom opened his eyes and with a careful smile he said "You love me? I can't believe it, you have no idea how much I've wished for this, for so long. I love you too". Georg eyes lightened up. Tom was laying there with Georg leaning over him and for once he was happy. Tom took his arm round Georg and pulled him closer. He had so much to say, but they both shared the same thought, how they wanted each other so badly. You could see it in their eyes how much they wanted this and how they couldn't wait anymore now when they finally had told each other what they felt. Tom rolled over so he could be on the top. The head of his wet tongue met Georgs stomach and he slowly and carefully started to lick his body bit by bit while moving his hand down his soft skin. He sat over Georg and opened his jeans. He slowly took off the nightblue boxers Georg had on and started touching him sensually 'till Georg was so horny he started to scream. Toms hard and wet tongue met his partners sweat, soft skin again. He rolled it around and around while watching Georg laying there all naked, moaning with pleasure. He fastly started moving he's mouth up and down and heard Georg started moaning louder and louder. His hips were moving with the pleasure of Toms mouth moving faster and faster up and down. His hand took a hard grip to a pillow next to him. He leaned his head back. moaning and breathing. Georg felt a pleasure he had never felt before, he couldn't help it, he started screaming, moving his hips even faster around. Tom moved his mouth away and watched while Georg touched himself with his shaking hand, while exploding into an erotic flame of orgasm not like anything Tom had ever seen before. Georg looked up at him with this drawing look like he owned him. Tom moved closer, knowing what Georg was about to do. He sat up over Georgs face with his legs spread. He felt Georgs mouth moving up and down fastly, Tom had never felt anything like this in his life, he instantly started breathing softly like a soft cold breath of air. He could feel every part of his body was filling up with this good feeling he had never felt before. He's body was moving forth and back, feeling Georgs warm mouth touchin him, driving his delicate skin up and down with his movement. Then he felt a warm and orgasmic feeling moving fast through all the muscles in his body. Georg kept on moving his mouth up and down. Tom felt a great pressure coming out of him, he started screaming out so loud, it felt so good that he couldn't hide it. He tok a grip in Georgs hair and held on tight while feeling Georg swallowing the warm cum that was running out of him. Tom finally felt all the mucsles in his body camlming down. He fell down lying next to Georg. Georg turned over to the side and looked at Tom while running his fingers through Toms dreads and lay his head on Toms chest before they fell asleep in each others arms with a smile on their face.

I dream of a far away place. A place for you and me and the silence.

I stare out the window and up at the sky, the sun is trying to push through the clouds and out so it can bring some sunshine into our lives, who's normally so dark and so cold and lonely.

The trees are green and trying to look alive in this poisoned world, but they fail. They just stand there with it's broken sorrow, waiting for the autumn so they can shine in the colors of red, orange and yellow. Then the leaves will fall off and die and all that will be left is their frosty naked highness that's trying to reach the sky.

Trees are alot like us humans. We walk around wishing for a better day, waiting for our colors to shine. When that day finally comes it's over before we know it and all that's left is our sorrow. We feel alone once again and then we're just wishing for a new day like that. Maybe it will come soon. Maybe yesterday were a great day, but tomorrow will be better? Yeh, I can't wait 'till tomorrow.

All I wish is to go back, running through my head, can't you hear what I'm saying? Don't you understand? I didn't wish for this.

"I always thought my life would be full of life" I said as I listened to Mew and was looking at the wall across the room.

The rabbit at the top of my tv was looking straight down on me, telling me that I should open up, relax, stop trying so hard. But what's it like to be "me"? How's it like to feel relaxed and don't need to try so hard to fit in? Is it good, is it bad? Did you get all excited on your road to your total happiness as a part of something and someone?

How's it like to be needed by someone, I wonder? To be a part of someone else and feel the pressure of sharing yourself with someone else? Does it make you a better person to hang on to someone and depend on someone and use that love to make you feel even more pain than you did in your forgotten childhood? Or did you forget, was it all a dream? you ask yourself as you close your eyes and fall asleep in the garden.

So many questions for such a young and innocent mind. Such a beautiful soul, but it doesn't help because you will never understand why we both fly and why we both fall. Wake me up when you understand this silence. You're so beautiful and I just can't let go this time. I can't touch you or be close to you or tell you how much I love you, but I do, I do love you. So strongly, so passionat, so much that it breaks my heart and I've never felt so strongly about anything or anyone as I do about you. How come I feel this way and all I need is for you to answer me back or hear your voice or oh, how the world stops when you have your arms around me.

What I don't have and how I die for this. This perfect girl you want in your mind that I can never give to you. But what if you could close your eyes and look into my heart and my mind and see everything I can give you. All these things I feel so strongly about and what I great person we can be together. I wanna grow together with you. I don't know where we are, but I fall with my head first. Stay with me, I don't want to be alone.

August 16th already today, soon 17th. Weird how fast life goes away from you and here we stand in the middle of a crossroad without knowing what's gonna happen and what kinda choise we're gonna take. Do we take the road that goes south or north? You never know what kind of choises that will affect your future on this planet. Will you become a lonely rock star who writes about how shitty your life is and end your famous rock star life with killing yourself like Kurt Cobain and leave lots of fans behind? or will you have a normal job as a interiour decorator, live in a fancy house with a husband, two kids and a dog to come home to who loves you? Or maybe you'll just end up as a narc all alone on the street, killing yourself in your lonely tears under a bridge in the rain somewhere and no one will even notice you're gone.
As far as I know, I'm afraid I'm gonna end up as the lonely narc on the street. It surtenly looks that way right now. Everyone else got something to do and I'm just that negative energy that gets in everyones way all the time and I'm really sorry, because I don't mean to. I just don't know what to do.

Anyway, enough about my complaining and over to something far more important, MUSIC!
What is a journal entry from me without any music videos hah?
So I'm just gonna say this...
Here's some songs I love to some really great videos on youtube, enjoy:















OMG! I love this unplugged version of "Freak On A Leash" with Amy Lee :(

Al the other songs are kinda songs and videos that reminds me of different things, so I just thought I should share them with you so you can make some memories to them and maybe check out some music you MAYBE haven't heard before ^^

Today I feel like I need to do something, all the time. It's freaking me out, I'm suddenly obsessed with doing every single detail of my room just perfect and get a true "ME" feeling to it, make it really close and personal. So I've putted some of my drawings up and pictures of my friends and stuff and it works out really good.

Anyway, been a little back an forth on the whole mood-thing today..again. I guess it's been okey, but at the same time sucked.

Listened ALOT to this band today, because they're music is just incredible. I don't know what I would do without music...:




You gotta love 30 Seconds To Mars-From Yesterday. It's just an incredible song and this band have some of the most best collection of music videos I've seen in a long time.
Speaking of videos to great songs that I love, you should check out this one, it's absolutely amazing:



It reminds me of one day a year back when I entered the Norwegian Idol audition in Oslo and I was told by some people in a really dark room that I'd never seen before that I was good, but I wouldn't get firther than that. The whole thing was chaos. I love to sing, it's my life and they kinda broke alot in my confidence when it comes to my voice. I just seriously broke down, I walked away from there as fast as I could and I couldn't stop crying, because I really wanna sing, that's all I want to do in my life. Without my voice and my music I lose everything I am. I've built the person I am up around music.
People were looking at me as I walked through the streets tired and cold and broken. I couldn't stop crying, because I really hoped that for once something would go right in my life, but it didn't. I hate that and I lost so much that day, I can't even seriously sing out the best I can anymore because I'm so scared of what people will think about me. You know, you sit at home and watch Idol and think that "OMG! get a grip man, he's just telling you the truth, it wasn't that hard, I could handle it better" and then you suddenly stand there and you're trying to make the best out of the situation and you're deeply nervous and you've been working hard to get this song right. And then you open your mouth and you sing and right before you're coming to the best part that will show the judges how good you are, they stop you, after only singing for 20 seconds when you're supposed to have 1 minute. And I'm truly serious when I say this...ALOT of people sucks who's in Idol, they're false and they can't sing at all and you just sit there and are like "wow, wtf" is this person thinking when he(she is on this show?". But I know I'm good, I've been singing in church chorus and been singing solo on every christmas at church when I was 4-8 years old. I've been in a arranged band. I've been teached by a woman named Tine who went to the Paul McCartney school in England and got through to the top 75 on Norwegian Idol 2004. So I've been teached by alot of great people through the years since I started singing as a 3 year old. But now thanks to those people I just don't have that trust in my voice anymore as I used to have, am I a good singer, really?
Anyway, to get to the FREAKING point here xD
That song reminds me of that day because in the car on my way home I turned on the radio and there it was. Kinda depressing, but whatever xD

Anyway, I'm addicted to Instant Star, yeh, of all the pointless tv shows out there that's the one I get addicted to. And it doesn't stop there, because I actually like some of the songs to, oh shut it.

My room look like a mess at the moment..yeeey xD

Learned a new song on my guitar today called "I don't care about you either" and yes, it's one of my own songs.

Anyway, for you shamefull people out there who didn't get to see KoRn live (I really feel sorry for you), here's a little video from that consert, it was just...WOOOOW! And yes, It is indeed Joey Jordison on drums..OH MAI GAWD!!! xD:



And to all of you curious people out there that wonders what kinda song I'm listenign to, you have that beautiful song here..:

I just stood there and had no idea where I was. My friends finally took off the skarf around my eyes, I was shocked. I couldn't speak and all I did was to look up at the guy that stood in front of me. Was it a dream? Did my eyes mess with me after many hours with the skarf around my head? I carefully took out my hand to touch his hair just to feel if it was real. OMG! it was him, the one and only Ville Hermanni Valo in person. I paniced. I just stood there with my hand touching his hair and a mouth that I apparently couldn't get a word out of.

He stood there and looked right into my eyes and smiled and said "Hey", I finally got a nervous "hey" out of my mouth too after standing there and looking at this beautiful guy for at least 5 minutes without saying anything at all.

Then he took his arms around me and pulled me closer and asked me if I wanted to go out with him and the rest of the guys after the consert. I wanted to scream yes out loud, but I held back and answered with a normal voice "Yeh, sure".

After the consert Ville came right over to me and we went out the backdoor and held his arm around me. I could see all the fans who were standing outside the club were asking themselves "who's that girl? O.o".
Ville gave out some autographs and talked to some of the fans and then he came over to me again and said "sorry about that" and took his arm around me again. I answered "Don't say sorry, it's your fans. It's cool that you have respect for the people who got you here". I must have said something right because he looked down on me and smiled there we were walking over to the place where we was gonna hang out.

We must have looked pretty cool there we walked with our ripped up jeans, black jackets, lots of black make-up around our eyes and our hats. All I know is that I've never felt cooler in my whole life than I did that night.

When we got there it was alot of alcohol. I even got Ville Valo and Linde to kiss each other, that was hot. After me and Ville split up with the rest of the group and was leaning on each other and fell alot on our way back to the hotel room. I didn't know what I was even doing here, but here I was drunk and alone with Ville. We fell over each other on a street corner and we laughed so hard. The street light was shining down on us there we were laying and we just looked into each others eyes and we got caught up in how surprisingly romanthic it actually was to lay over each other on the street in the light in the middle of the night like this. I felt my heart beating fast as his lips touched mine. I didn't know a kiss could be that good so we just stopped for a minute and then we just lost control. Ville stopped again and helped me up from the street and we went home to Villes place. I didn't get to see much of it because all we could do is see each other.

I pushed Ville down on his bed and sat on top of him and ripped off his shirt. After that we just became sick, SICK people, or more like animals who just went wild and insane. After we just sat in his bed, he took a smoke and me, who had never even tried to smoke before and had always been against everything that had to do with smoking, well, even I needed one. He was so hot there he was sitting right next to me in the bed all naked, smoking. It's true, he really does make smoking look like really good sex.

HIM is soon releasing a new album called "Venus Doom" and I can't wait..seriously, I'm gonna go insane. I LOVE THIS BAND and I have pre-ordered the Limited Edition of it and it's driving me insane that I have to wait, because I want it NOW! I'm really happy they've gotten a little more harder again, because they're back to being the band I fell in love with you know, so it's great. And this is the newest and first video/single from that album "Kiss Of Dawn":



I have alot to start telling you people.

This have been a weird year so far.

It all started with my birthday in March and I had so much fun with Katrine and Marius, except from Emeli who lives 9843672437 miles away, they're my best friends here where I live. You all three are my closest friends, too bad I almost never get to see Emeli amd that sucks xD
blablabla...

Then I went to Wednesday 13 consert with my best male buddy, Marius in April. We got to know some really hot guys there and the whole night was just fucking magic, wow, it's one of the greatest nights of my entire life. The consert was fucking great and the fact that I got to know such great people as them was fucking awsome.

In May I went to Trondheim to meet Emeli, Ceca, Challa and Marthe once again and it was fun to finally see where she lives and stuff, too bad I was sick and you had been patying the night before and you had to go to school. It was BORING. After that I was so freaking tired, I thought I was gonna die and I tried as hard as I could to hold on to that little energy I had left. After walking around in Trondheim for hours I was off course really sad to leave, but at the same time I was kinda happy to go home too, and it was a really long night because I had fever and a cold and I threw up on the freaking train and it was horribble. I'm not travelling to Trondheim again while I'm sick again...EVER! xD

Then in june I met a couple of the hot guys I met at the Wednesday 13 consert and we walked around in Oslo for a while before we went on the subway up to the park to be on Norwegian Wood festival the day Enslaved, Evanescence and KoRn was there. It was a great day. The weather was great, the guys were great and at once KoRn came on the stage it just took off so badly...it was the most amazing consert ever. That experience and the life and all these people we didn't know and this amazing band and the beautiful weather, the whole thing was just one of the greatest hours of my entire life. I didn't know it could be so much joy and greatness around a consert..wow..me and Jørn just stood outside on the street after waiting for Ottar and we were both just speachless, because it was GREAT, it was HUGE, you have no idea how it was..wow.

And now the last couple of months things have been crazy in a whole other way. It's sad to think about all these great moments that are gone, I will never experience that day or that night or whatever again, so it's kinda sad. But I'll always keep it in my heart, even now, hehe.

Anyway, earlier today I saw a music video on the tv I haven't thought about for almost three years now and I performed it on the stage at High School with that song (playing guitar and singing) and I still think it's kinda beautiful and magical, so I'm gonna share it..høhø.

well, I think I've said all I wanted to say now, so..*waves* 'till next time or something sweethearts. Bye bye my earthly darlings. Okey, I gotta stop watching Ville interviews now xD